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This is newly updated! SORRY for losing the tag-board temporarily. problem w/ code, etc. So just make do and read on. And yeah..enjoy. No Flashy graphics and Flash pla, just my opinion and sarcasm to top it off.

SORRY FIDEL FABIA !!! I'LL PAY YOU THIS MONDAY!!! PROMISE !!! SORRY TALAGA!!! AHHH!!! HIT & RUN...SORRY PARE !!!

Phew...I had to face the dilemna of choosing what course/college to take. Ateneo's my priority because I do want to take up Interdisciplinary Studies (Literature & Comm.), while Communications and Technology Management (Comtech) looks interesting. Mass Comm. is my third choice actually. If I go to UP, the courses are pretty vague and sometimes too specfic. Courses such as Food Technology leave you flabbergasted. But I think Creative Writing can be a good one.
It just boils down to this: Ateneo is the college to go to !!! The courses and the Ateneo campus are appealing. La Salle is an option too, as well as UST if I don't get to pass either Ateneo or UP. I'm positive I can make it though.


Hmmm...I see myself as a writer (Yeah...Pulp Mag...cge dream on pa...)..or how about having a side-business while at it? Something to do with music for sure. music=life! I remember having all these aspirations when I was a kid. Prior to my music-influenced stint, I wanted to be a geographer because I felt really smart knowing all those geographical facts while having fun at it. It sort of gave me the inclination to history I guess and it formed within me respect towards different cultures and even locally, understanding the economy in a half-baked way (ha!). After which, I got smitten by music, and before I even knew what sex was, I was mesmerized and captivated by bands such as Nirvana, Metallica, Oasis, Blur, Garbage, Smashing Pumpkins, etc. It became the bridge I took to become what I am today and obviously it affected my personality a lot, me being different from my porn-loving classmates and simply put, the confused. I was proud to say I wasn't like them quite a bit. I didn't talk about cars like everyone else. Didn't even follow the fad. Didn't converse about fhm or whatnot. Whoo...this is going pretty far back, isn't it? Ok. So I wanted to become a drummer. I wanted to be part of a band so badly. I wanted to go to Berklee to study music to sudy jazz or something. My first band was Apple Pencil, an amateur...what? band..uhh, maybe not. My friend Bianca Shaw was quite the leader. No gigs. Purely just a jam. Covered Everclear and even a little Oasis! A year after, I was with Genocide, a jamming-session-turned-weird-band-thing... After that, phew... *drinks a glass of water...* I jammed with the worst band on planet earth...uhhh..Uranus, I mean. They kept on dissing me because I couldn't ride with their putrid style. They kept on demanding me to do Deftones then Korn then Chico Sci, stuff that I didn't know how to play at that time. They kicked me out in a godless manner. I actually tasted the typical rockstar shit. Whoa. They formed Diam afterwards (genre: f**k metal, a BIG insane philosophy behind it...), a band I don't want to comment about. Actually I just did. Yeah, sniped 'em. They frankly remind me of how people generalize and brand many rock artists: on being (emphasis on)dumb, drugged, spendthrift, babaero, and even broke. That "band" I jammed with was a clear manifestation of all these repugnant generalizations. It is sadly the truth at times. Pfff...enough of this.


I'm listening to jazz right now. I feel like I'm in one of those Meg Ryan feel-good sappy movies. Yes, the suave blend of emotions tonight... I feel relaxed, a bit lethargic.............and actually infatuated with someone...half my brain's filled with her face smiling...ahhhh!!!... I hate this typical feeling. Normal yet a bit mortifyingly weird at times.

The Vines, like fire (I meant heaven..ha! what an analogy...) on my discman. Yeah, rock (again?) !!


Shet !! AAHHH!! Di ko na napanood yung Urban Dub sa Riverbanks. I hate myself... They came all the way from Cebu to play and I didn't come..ha..some fan I am..

URBAN DUB ASTIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know what's a good genre of music I should explore?
Psychadelic Space Rock with a tad influx of grunge ! Ha...beat that.

Ok, my band's NOT going to play this Saturday, June 7 because I screwed up and my mom won't let me this time around. Sorry Obe and to the rest of the band!

If my band were to play, April & Zoe wouldn't be coming... I understand. I bet Tin wouldn't be coming either. I just think that the P100 entrance fee w/o anything consumable is a bit harsh. All amateur bands. The venue's a crappy one too. Smoke everywhere. We better just play somewhere better, I guess. Ha! Better just be better and eat some butter with better tasting bread on a better day...Huh? Now that's strange.

Ha! What a coincidence. I'm surfing at April Sanchez's site... and guess what's playing on my winamp?
Sonny Clark's "I'll Remember April". Pff...I'll just leave it at that. Just a coincidence...Hey, it sounds nice....It's a jazz ballad. Man, this jazz thing's perking me up...

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Mayonaise - Smashing Pumpkins

Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June

We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plans
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will
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Their best song yet....it's funny how the smashing pumpkins evolved through the years since '91. Gish, prog rock. Then, Siamese Dream, grunge. After which, Melon Collie and the Infinite Sadness, still grunge and some melancholic element thrown in. Then came Pisces Iscariot, a mix of everything from the past actually. 1998 saw the release of Ava Adore, which was considered to be an industrial trip and at the same time venturing into tori amos-ish sounds with the piano and the drum machine (not that tori'd use 'em...) Two years later, they finshed off with Machina. Genre: alternative, metal, industrial, and just plain alternative goth rock!

Ackk...my mouth's dry even though I'm not talking.

Classes start on June 9. Whoohoo...all those long tests (math in particular can be brutal...it becomes sort of personal already when you flunk a major test...), all the cramming, the bands, the f*n proud conyos, the hyped geeks, the mardi gras fags, the assholes, the teacher-and-student-conversation-crap, and of course, who could forget Fr. Ampil's too frickin unnecessarily crammed-in way too long homilies !!! Ahh, hmmm...the org fair's gonna be exciting. Teatro again! C.A.T. Bald Head. Shit. Never had a shaved head.

Really now, do we have the right to say wer'e non-conformists even if we really are not?