post 50

God... what a LAZY week. Felt it breeze by me so fast...

So fast.

This high school thing's reaching its expiration date in a month or two and I'm half-itching to get out but at the same time, I think I'll miss almost everything that's bound to transpire.

Ok.. so back to the being lazy part, I actually had a good night's sleep last Thursday. I went home after slaving over at Teatro (my org), took a long bath, and slept! That was supposed to be a nap. 15 minute nap turned into the longest shut-eye I've had in years. So much for dinner. So much for whatever I planned to do. Record-breaking time, folks: 8:40 pm. Hahahaha! Strange. I usually sleep hours after that.. and it was pretty good for me to sleep soundly for once. Bad side though, I didn't get to study for Filipino anymore. Argh! So much for Simoun and his... life. Frankly, I don't give a shit how his story turned out. I mean... who does anyway? Who gives a damn about a story that was fictionalized a century ago and immortalized by people who look back at our sorry-ass history of being inferior to the Spaniards and blah blah blah... the anguish goes on. I guess we cram for a lot of useless subjects. But nevertheless, the philosophy behind everything we do at school is justified by the future we aim to earn. The pattern is that we study, we graduate, we get a job, we get married, we have kids, we get successfull in whatnot, then we die either happily or sadly. If the pattern is somewhat broken, like an unfortunate vicissitude of having kid/s before getting married or something as bad as that, we'd be sorry and spend a great deal of our lives trying to cope with the mess we generated.

Why do we actually waste too much of our time stressing out on densely ephemeral things?

To everyone else who mistake me for being "pikon" when I make a certain face and just look at them when they call me various names, or pity me for not talking back to them or anything, or think I'm a loser who they can take advantage of just because I don't talk back, these are my reasons:

- I'm not in the fuckin mood to earn what you define as respect right now, because if I choose to do so, it could entail the following, due to reaching down to you:
> degrading myself by talking trash to you
> reasoning out with your debauched mind
> doing cartwheels to impress you
- I don't understand you.
- I'm to lazy to say "Fuck you."
- Maybe I just don't want to put down anyone.
- I want to you to change I guess...

Resolution: smile and walk away.

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Aaaahhhh! News Flash: I miss her.... :(

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