Summer dies and swells rise, the sun goes down in my eyes, see this rolling wave, darkly coming to take me, home.

Jamie. I choose to love you, smiling. :) I choose to love your flaws, knowing that these are very much part of what it means to be human. I've never cared for anyone this much and even more...resolute in my actions and sincere in my intentions. I love you very much and though you choose to leave me, it hurts like a corroded chive cutting me straight up. It's all been laid out for me to understand. Understand. I've been willing to. I really am. All this time, all I did was love you. :) Jamie, you make my being shine so bright, inspiring me to understand life and pushing me to live it without a tinge of self-doubt. There is just so much to be felt, but I guess there is also so much to do. You're entering college, high school's a door you closed with a soft bang and I cried knowing you had to flake out of what we've taken care of and supposedly valued for a year and a month and a week. To tell you the truth, I understand. Thank you for making me grow. Albeit I am shattered by your promises, I look closely at the essence of all this lyrical tension. One year and a month and a week of being together were a lot more than a simple telling of duration. You built me into what I am today and I thank you for everything that you are. I find no reason to get all riled up. I still love you so much. That goes with a hug. I wish for your happiness. Even more than that. I want you to be strong. :) I hope it has nothing to do with me personally. No branding for me anymore. Girlfriends, boyfriends, friends. No labels, no tags, stickers, markers, graffiti and letters that infatuate. You have always been my bestfriend and I love you for all that you are. I would rather have you with flaws than someone this world would call perfect. I love you and that has always been that.



You're free. :)



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And there's this burning, just like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, and I've never been so alive...

- S. Jenkins